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12/28/2004 Entry: "A Cold, Sunny Tuesday" Well, it's a nice and boring Tuesday. Christine had to work in Baltimore. I woke up, did some house cleaning, and then working on my home network for a while. I browsed the web. Played a few XBox games with CR. Sean and Chance came to pick up their fish (I was fish-sitting her Betta). Debbie is staying for the week, but she stayed in the guest room all day, which isn't hard to do since it has its own bathroom and kitchen. I didn't feel like entertaining, anyway. Last night, Matt and Anya were over, and we just hung out. I have the rest of the week off, and plan to do a lot of nothing. Or just catch up on other stuff. I might even get back to demolishing the bathroom, who knows? Some of the cleaning I did today was the kind of cleaning I had put off for a long time, and its all simple stuff. I washed the master bathroom floor, sorted all the plastic storage containers in the kitchen, and straightened up the kitchen pantry. Things have been so chaotic this year, a lot of little stuff got ignored, and if it didn't turn into "big stuff," like, say a leak, then it stayed ignored. It seems stupid, but a lot of these jobs were an hour or less, and I wondered why I never got to them before now. Then I remembered the feeling of helplessness most of this year, and how these were just symptoms of being depressed and not wanting to deal with anything that might get too complicated. Speaking of depression, my seasonal depression comes and goes, but so far, thanks to the lack of personal disasters in the past few weeks, my depression seems to have been less pressing that normal. I only have periods of moodiness, usually late at night, or with migraines, where I want to curl up into a ball and cry my eyes out, but they seem less ... intrusive than they used to be. This has been a trend over the last few years, and I am wondering if I can actually beat depression, or at least permanently reduce it to be almost negligible.